Loneliness
What is loneliness?well,i can't provide any scientific term but i can tell what i think loneliness is for me.Almost my entire childhood was lonely because i was fat, i had no skills, i was dumb and i had no communication with my class fellows.At that time that was not effecting me but as soon as i grew up, i realized i was lonely, i had no one to have my back ,yeah my parents were there but they were not present at school, i had to do it on my own and that was not really easy.Facing bullies, listening to all those fat jokes about yourself,get beaten up by your teacher because you couldn't sing.NOT VERY EASY.
But I am not here to tell my childhood depressing story but how i was lonely and how i realized this now. Right now i have amazing friends but i also remember the time when i had no one by my side and no one to say"Bro, I got it".That was worst time of my life,that is something i really don't want to happen again.Most people wish that they can have their childhood back but i don't.I hate my childhood as much as avengers hate Thanos. No friends, no money, no hobby, no someone special,who want this type of early years?Atleast i don't.
Loneliness is very weird feeling, you feel empty, you know they're are people who love you but you don't believe it, you might be with your best friend but there will be something missing and you can't figure that out.You will be doing awesome and legendary stuff(as Barney says LEGENDARY) but still you're not connecting to it and that is frustrating.
There is constant darkness and that shaft of light is not getting it's way in.You might be at mall with best people but you're still alone and you don't know why this is happening, all you have are thousands of unanswered questions and emotions.
But I am not here to tell my childhood depressing story but how i was lonely and how i realized this now. Right now i have amazing friends but i also remember the time when i had no one by my side and no one to say"Bro, I got it".That was worst time of my life,that is something i really don't want to happen again.Most people wish that they can have their childhood back but i don't.I hate my childhood as much as avengers hate Thanos. No friends, no money, no hobby, no someone special,who want this type of early years?Atleast i don't.
Loneliness is very weird feeling, you feel empty, you know they're are people who love you but you don't believe it, you might be with your best friend but there will be something missing and you can't figure that out.You will be doing awesome and legendary stuff(as Barney says LEGENDARY) but still you're not connecting to it and that is frustrating.
There is constant darkness and that shaft of light is not getting it's way in.You might be at mall with best people but you're still alone and you don't know why this is happening, all you have are thousands of unanswered questions and emotions.
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